Sunday, November 30, 2008

一条苦瓜的启示

11月30 日,晴天

有一群弟子要出去朝圣。

师父拿出一个苦瓜,对弟子们说:“随身带着这个苦瓜,记得把它浸泡在每一条你们经过的圣河,并且把它带进你所朝拜的圣殿,放在圣桌上供养,并朝拜它。”

弟子朝圣走过许多圣河圣殿,并依照师父的教言去做。 回来以后,他们把苦瓜交给师父,师父叫他们把苦瓜煮熟,当作晚餐。

晚餐的时候,师父吃了一口,然后语重心长地说:“奇怪呀!泡过这么多圣水,进过这么多圣殿,这苦瓜竟然没有变甜。”

弟子听了,好几位立刻开了。

这真是一个动人的教化,苦瓜的本质是苦的,不会因圣水圣殿而改变;
人生是苦的,爱情是苦的,由情爱产生的生命本质也是苦的,
这一点即使是修行者也不可能改变,何况是凡夫俗子!

我们尝试过感情与生命的大苦的人,并不能告诉别人失恋是该欢喜的事,因为它就是那么苦,这一个层次是永不会变的。可是不吃苦瓜的人,永远不会知道苦瓜是苦的。

一般人只要有苦的准备,煮熟了这苦瓜,吃它的时候第一口苦,第二三口就不会那么苦了! 对待我们的生命与情爱也是这样的,时时准备受苦,不是期待苦瓜变甜,而是真正认识那苦的滋味,才是有智慧的态度。

不是期待苦瓜变甜 而是去真实的体会和了解 苦瓜本来就苦瓜 是连根苦的 这是一个苦瓜的实相、真相 变甜只是我们虚幻的期待而已 唯有真正面对事物的真相 我们才能从中了脱 所有的事情,唯有就当下去面对它、解决它 不期待未来來 才能真正地解决和处理.

无言。。。

11月29日,晴天

最近,与权和富谈到了我们的未来另一半。显然有种不知名的感觉涌上心头。虽然我并没有在为我那失去与逝去的爱来个风光的奠基,但起码我也诚心的送它上路。送它到西方极乐世界。解脱,救苦救难,这样做,我也仁至义尽了吧。。。

曾经,幸福就在街角处。。。人人都说:“希望在人间,你不转角,怎么遇见爱呢?”可每当,当你以为能在转角处遇见了谁时,那偏偏就是个假象。蒙骗的不是你得财富,金钱,而是你那毫不在乎的感情。那往往是个你永远都抹不掉的缺口。

曾经,有人说:既然牵手了,那就不要轻易的随便放手。又或者,你能让自己没有遗憾,没有后悔的潇洒下去多少次。。。

有人相信承诺,有人相信花言巧语,有人相信海枯石烂,
那统统本来就是一堆堆的废话。什么善意、恶意的谎言。。。我还真的得佩服那些常说谎的人。谎言还可以拿来分类,你可以不佩服他们吗?
说得天花乱坠的,都是不切实际。

我注重的只有“执子之手,与子携老。。。”

与大家共勉之。。。

Thursday, November 20, 2008

“曾经”...

11月21日,雨天

已经连续下了几天的雨,觉得好幸福好窝心。“其实幸福很简单,就像你在我身边。。。”这样的说法很幸福,很真。张栋梁唱得真贴切。曾经幸福过。。。这样的言语最让人难以忘怀。

其实单单“曾经”这个字,就已经很让人感触良多。。。

我曾经快乐过,
我曾经拥有过,
我曾经幸福过,
我曾经争取过,
我曾经爱过。。。

这个“曾经”, 让我觉得有种说不出口的感触,似乎在告诉我,我不会再拥有。这个“曾经”字,是在汉坤的部落格看到的, 顿时,感触良多。。。仿佛在告诉我,我们不会再幸福了。。。是这样吗???也许吧。。。

Daddy Mummy,我爱你。。。

11月20 日,雨天

不知道是不是昨晚太迟睡了, 今天起身时有点累累的。看一看手表已经快八点了,赶着时间要上班了。走出房外,没有看见爸妈。餐桌上也没有爸爸为我准备的爱心早餐。上班那么久,每天都是爸爸妈妈为我准备的。很窝心,再累,也累得幸福。。。
洗刷后,接到妈妈的电话,她说今天他们赶不及回来送我上班,要我自己去。 没办法咯,今天就得自己去咯。。。

爸妈不在身边,有点不习惯。。。没有人送我上班,也没有人为我准备早餐,我还真的连要冲杯Nesca, 也因为不知道它被放在那里而只随便的冲了杯美绿充饥。由于快迟到了,我连美绿都没有喝完就匆匆忙忙的自己出门去了。

晚上回到家,由于爸爸买的面包我因为赶时间而没有弄来吃而被发现了。妈妈问我怎么今天早上没有吃早餐就去上班呢。 他们那关心的口吻。。。我真的觉得很窝心。。。
突然发现,没有他们在我身边,我还真的很不会照顾自己。。。
谢谢爸妈,我爱你。。。

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

思念。。。

11月19日,雨天

前几天与权聊天时说起了我的部落格,他说我的部落格都是英文的,没有什么兴趣。其实我明白,因为用英文,还真的不比用中文来的贴切。虽然我有两个部落格,但这里却变成了我主要的文字留言板。。。

今天赶着回家,临回家前,同事要我帮他完成一份报告,由于赶着回家准备晚餐,我竟然没有做完就离开了,抱歉咯。在回家的路上,下着大雨,我觉得很窝心。因为我最喜欢的天气就是雨天。

有些人喜欢看夜景,有些人喜欢看星星,而我最喜欢看雨天,就这样傻傻的望向窗外,什么也不想的,看雨天。

回到家门口,雨还是没有停。。。雨伞在包包里,但我没有开,冒着雨下了车,我倒希望雨可以再下得大一些,因为我真得很喜欢雨水打在身上的那种感觉。

有时候,望着雨天,我也喜欢缅怀从前。不知道什么时候开始,思念对我而言已经起不了什么作用。以前,我喜欢静静的思念一个人。就只坐在一角,这样的思念着一个人。一个。。。给了我很多欢笑,也给了我很多泪滴的一个人。也许,这就是爱。。。有快乐有悲伤,我们才能轻易的分辨出什么时候是快乐,什么时候是悲伤。如果全天候都是快乐,试问:我们怎么分辨什么是快乐与悲伤呢?

但你从来都不知道。。。失去你,我比从前更加不快乐。

Saturday, November 15, 2008

w@st3 mY W0Rk @h~

14th November 2008

Today is the first day and also is the first time I can back to home on time which mean I can leave office 530pm sharp! Really amazing. Early in the morning I d very pek cek with my Audit work. Especially the FA listing. No matter how i calculate, it stil not tally and not balance. A bit pek cek d since I have spent my time on this section for 5 hours.

Seek the help from my lovingly senior, he ask me to key-in those previous information and calculate it by setting the new fomula. I don't know it is the System want to fight with me or what, it cause I fail to do so and I have to Key-in the fomula one by one instead of set it up.

I have use 5 hours to do everything and in the end I give up d, I want to do for another section. Mana tau once my senior open the file for another section, he found out that the FA listing which I have key-in just now have a softcopy there. Which mean, I do double work! Really Za Dao! Waste my time to set everything...and this Cutie, Yan Tao, "Goodest" senior say: give you a lesson so next time before you do your work you have to check everything so ma won't repeat lor. BOOM!!!!

After lunch, he bought me the sweet candy and say want to claim me down...haha...for those who know me well...you guy will know if I am really Angry or not happy, I am not that type of girl which can use a sweet candy to tam me...althought the Sa Lao buy me McFlurry, also can't tam me...You, Senior!I**n Se! I am not angry but then You, Please Don't bully me!!! Althought I am Just a small little junior and your assistance, but then...Don't Dim me la Ok!

Next time, YOU WIN YOU WIN!!!!ok??
hehe...but then Thanks for him la, cause he always help me and teach me...(he say I become more xi xin is cause of him, BLEK!!!)

Monday, November 10, 2008

LoS3 @nD LoSt...

9th November 2008

I was wonder why I will face this problem and because of this problem, I really suffer a lot from it. I don’t think it is bad or give any effect for the rest of the time, but why must take it so serious and come out a lot of the pressure to press me down.

Today, I am really upset, after chat with Kuan, I feel a bit okay and after that Sa Lao call me up…I cry for the whole…on that time, I really wish there have someone beside to give me a hug and sense of security…at least I have a place to rely…

Whole day I sit at home and lock myself into my bedroom, no communicate with anyone…night time, I found that I am really and I need to find a place to release my tension, in the end, I choose to go out and swim the whole Melaka.

I was out for 3 hours and non-stop to travel here and there, I even drive to Durian Tunggal, Half of Muar and Mahcap, Pulau Gadong, Sungai Udang, Pantai Kundur, Kurbong, Cheng Ayeh Keroh, Au Yun Hill and etc. until 12am++ I just finish my journey and turn back to home. Kuan ask me why not I find the Panda Bear to accompany me…

I told him that don’t want kacau him but the truth is: I really scare that I fail to get the Bear and in the end, I will feel more empty and sad… Kuan is coming back next week… and he said will only discuss with me on that time. Thanks to him although he at that hundred km far from me, but he will always there for me, my psychology consultant.

I have found out that, there have no one for me to rely and to protect me…I am really lose and lost…and I found out that, I am really useless and not important to anyone…

It’s been a rainy afternoon, now I starring at the moon, thinking, we get too serious too soon…

Saturday, November 8, 2008

A Br@nd N3W d@y

8th November 2008

Rest your head and close your eyes
Everything will be okay...

For when you wake with the sweet sunrise
It will be a brand new day...

Turn down the lights and pull me close
Feel only the beating of our hearts as we lay...

For when you wake with the soft morning breeze
It will be a brand new day...

Relax your body and caress my soft hair
Let all of life’s worries melt away...

For when you wake with the warm summer scent
It will be a brand new day...

Fall fast asleep and dream with me
Whisper "I love you, I’m here to stay"...

For when we wake in each other’s arms
It will be a brand new day...

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Motivation & Leadership LessonSSS

6th November 2008

Do something. If it is works, do more of it.
If it doesn't, do something else.

People need me…they depend on me. We're doing something important here. And knowing that gives me the energy to carry the sack, lead the pack, and keep coming back.
~Santa Claus~
~Motivation~

Three strategies from Nuts’nBolts Leadership

Hire for Tomorrow’s Job. Don’t just hire for a position, hire for the future. Jobs, technologies, and markets are changing faster than ever. Look for people who are intelligent, quick learners, and adaptable to change.

Remember: To Get the Best, You Have to Test! The most reliable predictor of success on the job is not experience, education, or age. The best predictor is testing. Test for every important criterion in the job requirements.
Keep Your Ears Open for “We’s.” [In interviews] Listen for the “we” word …unless you’re looking for an “I” person. One trait of good team players – no matter their level or function – is the use of the word “we” when describing previous work situations and achievements.

Require foR Wh@T??

6th November 2008

Brand new day, time pass away...today complete a Dormant audit report by using ONLY 1 day time. I feel that I getting love myself more and more, for sure I have to thanks to my little senior... haha...he say he is not that old, ask me don't say so. haha...I found that it is really nice to have such workplace and colleague who cause my day pass so fast and meaningful.

Maybe this few weeks I busy until forget those other thing, suddenly recall back that day Jie ask me to partner with him, I was so surprise that he will come to me and want me to become his partner. His reaction really surprise me and I just promise that I will consider and see how it is.


Still remember Yew told me about the minimum requirement to become the partner. That is why I just told Jie that I will consider if the requirement is not existed and those problem have been set off. He say he want to reverse me, haha...I was wonder why reserve me? Do you think I going to run away? haha...come on, impossible. haha..cause my leg too short liao la.

Now he got thing to busy with, so wish him all the best ya. Always here to support...

GooD LucK~ and About our engagement...we deal it later...C ya~


Wednesday, November 5, 2008

WaLk .. WoRk .. Wh@T?

5th November 2008

Today in office feel very peaceful. Early in the morning my boss already cook us a pot of red bean Tong Shui and serve us at tea time. Although the taste not that nice, not bad too la.hehe...Morning time my senior start checks on my audit report and found that there has some error on my report. He ask me do some edition but in the end, he also take my place and do for me. He always helps me to cover my problem. Just now he so naughty and take my planner to have a look on it. I ask him why so kepo take my planner.

Then you know what he answers? He says he just simply fooling around. Really Za dao! Then he comments that I have no time to complete my work as the planner plan. I also know la, but then what to do wor, I already do very fast liao leh. I already work like a real Sa po liao. You want me die meh. Hang off me also need time to wait till I die ma. Don’t complaint okay!

I already do my best but then Stupid client have so many mistake, error and those unknown figure, I have to trace it 1 by 1 although some are in-material but there have plenty figure are material. Then my senior asks me stay OT late as him. You know what time he went back home everyday? He always works until 8.30pm++ or 9pm from 9am morning. Oh My God! Kill me please. I wish to but then you want me walk back home at the dark night alone? Please la, I am not that brave and it is very dangerous okay, that is why my Sa Lao everyday no matter how busy he is, he stil come to fetch me, ini Manusia pula want me to back at late night.

In the end my senior told me that, he say he don't mind everyday after working accompany me walk back home then only he go back to his house. Wah, why give me such offer wor? Want me to become your V-Team it is? haha...man man teng la...haha...

I was wonder since when my boss hire a good worker as him and I was wonder how much he get from my boss. Don’t misunderstand my meaning. I just curious he can even become the security guard. Haha...Today he even treat me lunch and say it is for me as the new comer to there. Sweat, I already work for so long and today he treat me lunch and say is Sai Chang wor and although my other colleague (trainee as well) work for 2 months+ but my senior never treat her. Haha…really 10s you lor…

Sunday, November 2, 2008

B@l@nc3 Sh33t oF LiF3~

2nd November 2008






Our Birth is our Opening Balance!
Our Death is our Closing Balance!
Our Prejudiced Views are our Liabilities
Our Creative Ideas are our Assets

Heart is our Current Asset
Soul is our Fixed Asset
Brain is our Fixed Deposit
Thinking is our Current Account

Achievements are our Capital
Character & Morals, our Stock-in-Trade
Friends are our General Reserves
Values & Behaviour are our Goodwill

Patience is our Interest Earned
Love is our Dividend
Children are our Bonus Issues
Education is Brands / Patents

Knowledge is our Investment
Experience is our Premium Account
The Aim is to Tally the Balance Sheet Accurately.
The Goal is to get the Best Presented Accounts Award.

Some very Good and Very bad things ....
The most destructive habit....... ......... .......Worry
The greatest Joy......... ......... ......... .....Giving
The greatest loss.......Loss of self-respect

The most satisfying work........ .......Helping others
The ugliest personality trait....... ......Selfishness
The most endangered species..... ....Dedicated leaders
Our greatest natural resource.... ......... ...Our youth

The greatest 'shot in the arm'........ ..Encouragement
The greatest problem to overcome.... ......... ....Fear
The most effective sleeping pill....... Peace of mind
The most crippling failure disease..... ........Excuses

The most powerful force in life........ .......... .Love
The most dangerous act..... ..A gossip
The world's most incredible computer.... ....The brain
The worst thing to be without..... ......... ..... Hope

The deadliest weapon...... ......... ........The tongue
The two most power-filled words....... ......... 'I Can'
The greatest asset....... .......... ......... ......Faith
The most worthless emotion.... ......... ....Self- pity

The most beautiful attire...... ......... .........SMILE!
The most prized possession.. ........ ......Integrity
The most powerful channel of communication. ....Prayer
The most contagious spirit...... ......... ......Enthusiasm

Life ends; when you stop Dreaming,
Hope ends; when you stop Believing,
Friendship ends; when you stop Sharing,
And...
Love ends; when you stop Caring...!!!

HapPY FaMiLy D@Y

1st November 2008

Today really happy with my family all. After shop at JJ then we meet up at Pearl café. A place that I love so much and we do enjoy a lot there. Don’t whose come out the stupid idea that starts questioning me and I have repeat the answer again and again but they thought I was lying.

To my dear family, I swear I didn’t lie to you all la ok. Why don’t want to believe me? Even itu Hujan also say about this. Thought today he in uneasy condition then won’t Boom people, mana tau BOOM me too…wei…u r Boom Ming ma, doesn’t mean must BOOM me ma.

While stay at there, we really PLAY HARD and joke hard. Know what? All about the 21st independent ISSUES. Really sweat la. Itu pun Siraj punya pasal start talking about the funny thing. Oi family, don’t PLAY too HARD ok. Haha…nanti kena baru tau, susah la. Haha…

Think we didn’t meet up for long term d, now really feel happy and enjoy a lot. Say get my lovingly jimui laychee there, really getting crazy and crazy and I tell you my dear jimui, I buy the shoes is cheap cheap de ok. Do not compare the price with me.

Haha…bully me sumore, next time got any 1st hand news, I don’t want to tell you d…haha… k k, miss you all…

Happy family day…muaks…Love you all…

Saturday, November 1, 2008

H@PPy BiRthD@y...

1st November 2008

Today finish work at 730pm. After Sa Lao send me back, he go to meet his client and back to me at 8pm++. While thinking where to have our dinner, he come out the Idea and we went to Wa Zhen a Japanese food restorance. It is the nice place to eat Japanese food. I know this place is my Jimui- Fen Fen bring me there de.

We took alot of food there. The Sa Lao full until can't walk. hehe...he everyday say want to feed me till I fat fat, then now is my turn to feed him d...u jia lat liao..hehe...

After the meal, we have no idea where to go, we plan to have movie at 12:15am but in the end we went to Machap again. Amazing...11pm we travel to there. It is really scary and very dark. After that, we went to Au Yun Hill.(jus pass by) Actually our purpose is just swim swim car river.

While round here and there, I found that it is already 12am...I wish him and sing him the birthday song. Know what happen? Then he buy me a Mc Flurry. haha...I untung la. Sweat! Today is his birthday but I am the one who get the present from him. hehe...

After reach my house, I give him 2 present on his birthday. haha...think he sure Zha Dao with my CREATIVE naughty present. hehe...hope he like my present lor...

Sa Lao Sa Lao...Sa Po wish you all the best and hope you are happy with your birthday. I got nothing to surprise you, but just have little present here for you...

Happy Birthday....let's present...

Happy Birthday To you,
Happy Birthday To you,
Happy Birthday To Sa Lao,
Happy Birthday To you...