UnH3AlthY 2008...

29th December 2008

Soon...2008 going to end. Christmas, for me is just a day. I have no mood to attend any invitation.

Sometime, I will think about it: Where will my soul going to be after I leave this world? Sometime, I will always think about it: Will anyone feel sad, remember me, feel not hearted enough to let me go and etc. etc. etc.?

Money for me is now just a small thing... and...
Health for me is everything...

On this coming new year, I hope everyone will be happy and if I have do something that make people sad...Kindly forgive me...

DepreSsssssssss

19th December 2008

Working is always my life...today get scolded by boss, but actually not really scold...just ask and give another order to me and my senior...feel tension and after all I feel depress...
I am always like and can work under pressure...

Again again and again...I always tell myself...I love my work.....

My set of Swarovski.

19th December 2008

That Day My Cousin wedding, Vincent buy me a set of Crystal it made with Swarovski Components from South Affrica (if I am not mistaken) and it cost Rm300++. He buy 2 different set for me and another 1 is for Ah Kim...both of us got the nice nice jewelry. I wear it to attend cousin wedding...Nan Ah Kim saw get my jewelry she feel so happy and envy that I have 1 set..

haha..ask Nan Jiu Jiu buy for you lor...hehe...

my Crystal...

Lovely Choco...

17th December 2008

My little adorable going to back to KL d, Vincent back from KL to fecth them home...haha...guess what, he come back from KL just a day buy he still bring me a little present...really nice...

My Chocolate...I love Chocolate...Mozz Choco...

Love You the most lor....

EOM trip...

16th December 2008

My little adorable going back to KL tomorrow, I really feel a bit sian when they are not beside me...I have promise to bring them go to EOM before they back to KL...today if I still don't want to bring them go, for sure they will be very disappointed to I this Da Jie Jie...

Today work not so much, I can leave on time. I can bring them go...that big mei mei naughty naughty...keep want to buy dvd as UPSR present..bring them go to MP shopping, that little boy say hungry want to eat thing...Oh My God...I really mad...After go Mp shop, I buy them McD as Dinner, then bring them go to EOM...they so happy and satisfied...look at their smile...I am really happy..although I am very tire, I am really happy...

Those are my Little adorable.
The view From Top of EOM.













Melaka View...














This is My little boy.















This is my Big Mei Mei














EOM view...nice...

My Choco ( imported from Sg...)

15th December 2008

Finally today my little adorable come back from Singapore...I this Da Jie Jie didn't go Singapore but I get Present From my brother and my mum...I feel so happy cause even though they went to there but they stil remember to buy me present...

This is my mum buy for me de...

This is my aunty buy for me de...(my Flavor)

This 1, is my brother buy for me de..

The Chocky As big As My Pringles..

SunD@y triP~

14th December 2008

La La La~~Sunday is the best...No need work...Mummy bring my little adorable go to Singapore holiday...Left me at home (cause I have to work) so bore...but luckily my jimui come back then early in the morning we sleep until 12pm then go for our lunch. After that we go to swim car river at Bukit Beruang (actually we are looking for a house for my jimui to Stay)...good good...in th end we get a room...

After that we go to Mp shop for whole day and buy so many thing...really feel happy and satisfied...I have been long time didn't go for shopping...Mp pc fair so many people there, I with jimui shop for awhile then quickly run out...

Night time we took our dinner at Pearl cafe...after out meal, we back to home fan san ka...haha...really enjoy...

Food PoisoNing.

13th December 2008

After zz for whole night, I feel so satisfied...hehe...long time didn't sleep as tight as today..Night time have a date with YC Lye..he said going to bring along a friend to join our date...I am always happy to know more friend...

At night, he come to fetch me...hehe...mana tau that friend he bring along...I already know liao...is my primary schoolmate - Dennis...really...I am a small small world, and a small small world, is not a big big world if you know me...~~

Wahaha...after that we go to Pearl Cafe to have our drink there, I still feel so sick due to food poisoning...although I didn't take anything after my lunch with my jimui...I feel so full and have no appetite until night time...

haizzz...sick sick very bad...food poisoning very suffer.........................

Our L@dieSsss night~

12th December 2008

Yesterday Mb come back, we have many plan...tonight we plan to go for something special...hehe...especially Melinde...she said she want to go to some special places...then we plan to go when MB is back...

Tonight is the day...actually long long ago, Melinde with me plan to go but due to some reason, at last we didn't turn out..yeah...we going to Sunshine...

At there we chit chat and just take some light soft herba tea, sudddenly got people treat 3 of us drink...after awhile there have 2 guys come to us and sit together with us...opp...we was so worry and a bit nervous but hence we act like sporting and nothing...

After chat with that 2 guys for awhile, that 2 guys ask about our age...haizzz, you don't girl's aging is top secret meh? So, sure we didn't tell la..and that Melinde pasal attract those guys come to us...haha..powerful my dear...

After do those stupid thing (keep lying to that 2 guys about our background) we leave around 2am..

Mb and me...

This is mb~

This is SKY

This is Melinde

No swiMmInG~

11th December 2008

Today my jimui back from USJ, early in the morning 3 of us - Fen, MB & ME already decided take lunch together...after lunch we plan to have an exercise after y work but too bad...they fetch me at 530pm sharp ( so ngam my boss not around, no need hang off myself for so long).

Once we depart to our destination...Oh my god...Raining....sweat... we already long time didn't go to swim at our Old Place, today we plan to go but it rain...

In the end, we turn up to JJ and shopping...really sweat...haizzz...

rain oh rain...although I love rainy day...but can you rain on time?hehe...

my little 3...

10th dcember 2008

This week my cutie adorable come back to stay with me for a week, I feel so happy when they are beside me...although:...

my little boy like to gum me up together with him, disturb me at night, kick while he was in dream...

my eldest little girl like to chit chat nonsense with me, think something incredible, everyday want me eat crab with her...

my little girl like to fight with the rest of 2 make me headache, like to cry when she feel not happy & no matter waht happen...
but when they are with me, I really feel very happy...

3 little dear, must be guai guai ya...jie jie always love you all the most...
muaks....

R@iNy D@y...

9th December 2008

Yesterday whole day raining...
The rain drop from the sky,
I vent to the rain,
My heart going to break...

Yesterday whole day raining...

The floor become cleaner,

My thinking become more complicated...

and...

Yesterday whole day raining...

The rain did not bring along my sadness,

Instead, it add on my sadness...

Wish You All the best...

Family day...

8th December 2008

Today for me is a family day. This is because Yesterday night is my cousin wedding dinner and whole of my family come back from out-station to attended her wedding ceremony and today is Day of Haji, all of them no need towork, but I have to work during this family and public holiday.

What a pity me... but never mind, since I stay at home also keep disturb my cutie naughty little bao bei, instead, I can continue work to complete my task...

This few day have something come to me and annoying me alot. I hope that the bad feeling ill be waive of as soon as possible so that my mood and emotion will always in a good mood.

Wish I have a Happy Day...

5 Ways to Protect You from the Flu-5

1st December 2008

5. Wash hands frequently, but avoid antibacterial products.
This seems counterintuitive, but the best way to kill environmental germs is to use soap and hot water and scrub hands thoroughly. Bacteria live all around us. They are on every surface we touch and in every breath we take. Without bacteria, our immune system wouldn’t learn to be strong.

Our internal bacterial system fights off invaders and thereby gets more effective at winning the battle. It’s just like working out: In order to become stronger, you must work hard in the gym. Your child’s body is a bacterial gym. Again, this comes back to the immune system. If you foster a strong immune system, your child’s body will fight off invaders and therefore become more resilient to future battles.

While it is imperative to wash hands frequently during flu season, remember that the hands are only one very small way that germs enter your child’s system. Killing off the germs on hands with antibacterial products is futile and weakens your child’s- and the world’s- future ability to confront germs.

5 Ways to Protect You from the Flu-4

1st December 2008

4. Fatigue is the first sign of a distressed immune system.
As already stated, the immune system desperately needs sleep to keep the body healthy. When the immune system is fighting to keep your child healthy, it requests that the body get extra rest to help in the fight.

If your child seems more fatigued than usual, it could be a very strong signal that your child is on the brink of getting sick.

The best way to fight off a cold or flu is to act immediately and get extra rest. Pay attention to the health of others around you such as those at work or your child’s school. If you hear of a bug “going around” and you notice that your child is tired, there’s a good chance that extra sleep will ward off the cold or flu. This is the time to allow extra television and require a mid-day nap.

5 Ways to Protect You from the Flu-3

1st December 2008

3. Sleep will boost the immune system.
At night while we rest, the body is working to rebuild the immune system. Deep sleep allows a complex set of hormonal changes that recharge the body so that it’s resilient the next day. Be diligent and ensure that kids get a full night sleep of 8-10 hours.

Mandate bedtime despite protests and stick to a regular schedule. These are the times that mom and dad really need to be the boss. Resist the temptation to allow your child to stay up late and watch his or her favorite show. At the end of the day when you are tired as well, it’s easy to give in to your child’s vigilant campaign.

Remember: Would you rather avoid the confrontation tonight? Or deal with a sick kid tomorrow?

5 Ways to Protect You from the Flu-2

1st December 2008

2. Fresh foods offer the highest quality vitamins.
It’s shocking to me how often I see people turn to orange juice for vitamin C in an effort to fight off a cold or flu.

It is important to understand that the majority of vitamin C in orange juice is added after processing. Vitamin C and others like zinc, vitamin E, and magnesium help to support the immune system and are a great defense during flu season.

Choose better by having kids eat fresh whole foods such as cherries, berries, and apples, and vegetables such as spinach, kale, Brussels sprouts, broccoli, carrots and sweet potatoes.

I know you probably hear this suggestion all the time, but it can’t be stressed enough. It is imperative to find creative ways to prepare vegetables so that kids will actually eat them. Sautee, roast or grill vegetables with olive oil or real butter, add some fresh sea salt or sprinkle with organic low fat cheese and kids will be more likely to eat.

5 Ways to Protect You from the Flu-1

1st December 2008

1. Sugar and processed foods impact the immune system.
Studies have shown that through a complex system of chemical processes sugar and processed foods depress the immune system. There exists a direct link between the amount of these foods that your child consumes and his/her health.

Obvious foods such as sodas, candy, cookies, ice cream, and potato chips are the big guns that should be kept concealed.

Even more disturbing are the foods that you think are healthy for your child that hide sugar and many refined ingredients: yogurt, and yogurt drinks and “pops;”most cereals; juices; fruit roll ups and “leathers;” “healthy” cookies and treats, soy ice cream and frozen treats. While being marketed as healthy choices, these foods aren’t much better than the obvious poor choices. Work hard during flu season to keep these foods away from your children. Read ingredient labels and watch out for: corn syrup, high fructose corn syrup or “HFCS,” brown rice syrup, fructose, sucrose, barleymalt and the obvious, sugar.

一条苦瓜的启示

11月30 日，晴天

有一群弟子要出去朝圣。

师父拿出一个苦瓜，对弟子们说：“随身带着这个苦瓜，记得把它浸泡在每一条你们经过的圣河，并且把它带进你所朝拜的圣殿，放在圣桌上供养，并朝拜它。”

弟子朝圣走过许多圣河圣殿，并依照师父的教言去做。 回来以后，他们把苦瓜交给师父，师父叫他们把苦瓜煮熟，当作晚餐。

晚餐的时候，师父吃了一口，然后语重心长地说：“奇怪呀！泡过这么多圣水，进过这么多圣殿，这苦瓜竟然没有变甜。”

弟子听了，好几位立刻开了。

这真是一个动人的教化，苦瓜的本质是苦的，不会因圣水圣殿而改变；
人生是苦的，爱情是苦的，由情爱产生的生命本质也是苦的，
这一点即使是修行者也不可能改变，何况是凡夫俗子！

我们尝试过感情与生命的大苦的人，并不能告诉别人失恋是该欢喜的事，因为它就是那么苦，这一个层次是永不会变的。可是不吃苦瓜的人，永远不会知道苦瓜是苦的。

一般人只要有苦的准备，煮熟了这苦瓜，吃它的时候第一口苦，第二三口就不会那么苦了！ 对待我们的生命与情爱也是这样的，时时准备受苦，不是期待苦瓜变甜，而是真正认识那苦的滋味，才是有智慧的态度。

不是期待苦瓜变甜 而是去真实的体会和了解 苦瓜本来就苦瓜 是连根苦的 这是一个苦瓜的实相、真相 变甜只是我们虚幻的期待而已 唯有真正面对事物的真相 我们才能从中了脱 所有的事情，唯有就当下去面对它、解决它 不期待未来來 才能真正地解决和处理.

无言。。。

11月29日，晴天

最近，与权和富谈到了我们的未来另一半。显然有种不知名的感觉涌上心头。虽然我并没有在为我那失去与逝去的爱来个风光的奠基，但起码我也诚心的送它上路。送它到西方极乐世界。解脱，救苦救难，这样做，我也仁至义尽了吧。。。

曾经，幸福就在街角处。。。人人都说：“希望在人间，你不转角，怎么遇见爱呢？”可每当，当你以为能在转角处遇见了谁时，那偏偏就是个假象。蒙骗的不是你得财富，金钱，而是你那毫不在乎的感情。那往往是个你永远都抹不掉的缺口。

曾经，有人说：既然牵手了，那就不要轻易的随便放手。又或者，你能让自己没有遗憾，没有后悔的潇洒下去多少次。。。

有人相信承诺，有人相信花言巧语，有人相信海枯石烂，
那统统本来就是一堆堆的废话。什么善意、恶意的谎言。。。我还真的得佩服那些常说谎的人。谎言还可以拿来分类，你可以不佩服他们吗？
说得天花乱坠的，都是不切实际。

我注重的只有“执子之手，与子携老。。。”

与大家共勉之。。。

“曾经”...

11月21日，雨天

已经连续下了几天的雨，觉得好幸福好窝心。“其实幸福很简单，就像你在我身边。。。”这样的说法很幸福，很真。张栋梁唱得真贴切。曾经幸福过。。。这样的言语最让人难以忘怀。

其实单单“曾经”这个字，就已经很让人感触良多。。。

我曾经快乐过，
我曾经拥有过，
我曾经幸福过，
我曾经争取过，
我曾经爱过。。。

这个“曾经”， 让我觉得有种说不出口的感触，似乎在告诉我，我不会再拥有。这个“曾经”字，是在汉坤的部落格看到的， 顿时，感触良多。。。仿佛在告诉我，我们不会再幸福了。。。是这样吗？？？也许吧。。。

Daddy Mummy,我爱你。。。

11月20 日，雨天

不知道是不是昨晚太迟睡了， 今天起身时有点累累的。看一看手表已经快八点了，赶着时间要上班了。走出房外，没有看见爸妈。餐桌上也没有爸爸为我准备的爱心早餐。上班那么久，每天都是爸爸妈妈为我准备的。很窝心，再累，也累得幸福。。。
洗刷后，接到妈妈的电话，她说今天他们赶不及回来送我上班，要我自己去。 没办法咯，今天就得自己去咯。。。

爸妈不在身边，有点不习惯。。。没有人送我上班，也没有人为我准备早餐，我还真的连要冲杯Nesca， 也因为不知道它被放在那里而只随便的冲了杯美绿充饥。由于快迟到了，我连美绿都没有喝完就匆匆忙忙的自己出门去了。

晚上回到家，由于爸爸买的面包我因为赶时间而没有弄来吃而被发现了。妈妈问我怎么今天早上没有吃早餐就去上班呢。 他们那关心的口吻。。。我真的觉得很窝心。。。
突然发现，没有他们在我身边，我还真的很不会照顾自己。。。
谢谢爸妈，我爱你。。。

思念。。。

11月19日，雨天

前几天与权聊天时说起了我的部落格，他说我的部落格都是英文的，没有什么兴趣。其实我明白，因为用英文，还真的不比用中文来的贴切。虽然我有两个部落格，但这里却变成了我主要的文字留言板。。。

今天赶着回家，临回家前，同事要我帮他完成一份报告，由于赶着回家准备晚餐，我竟然没有做完就离开了，抱歉咯。在回家的路上，下着大雨，我觉得很窝心。因为我最喜欢的天气就是雨天。

有些人喜欢看夜景，有些人喜欢看星星，而我最喜欢看雨天，就这样傻傻的望向窗外，什么也不想的，看雨天。

回到家门口，雨还是没有停。。。雨伞在包包里，但我没有开，冒着雨下了车，我倒希望雨可以再下得大一些，因为我真得很喜欢雨水打在身上的那种感觉。

有时候，望着雨天，我也喜欢缅怀从前。不知道什么时候开始，思念对我而言已经起不了什么作用。以前，我喜欢静静的思念一个人。就只坐在一角，这样的思念着一个人。一个。。。给了我很多欢笑，也给了我很多泪滴的一个人。也许，这就是爱。。。有快乐有悲伤，我们才能轻易的分辨出什么时候是快乐，什么时候是悲伤。如果全天候都是快乐，试问：我们怎么分辨什么是快乐与悲伤呢？

但你从来都不知道。。。失去你，我比从前更加不快乐。

w@st3 mY W0Rk @h~

14th November 2008

Today is the first day and also is the first time I can back to home on time which mean I can leave office 530pm sharp! Really amazing. Early in the morning I d very pek cek with my Audit work. Especially the FA listing. No matter how i calculate, it stil not tally and not balance. A bit pek cek d since I have spent my time on this section for 5 hours.

Seek the help from my lovingly senior, he ask me to key-in those previous information and calculate it by setting the new fomula. I don't know it is the System want to fight with me or what, it cause I fail to do so and I have to Key-in the fomula one by one instead of set it up.

I have use 5 hours to do everything and in the end I give up d, I want to do for another section. Mana tau once my senior open the file for another section, he found out that the FA listing which I have key-in just now have a softcopy there. Which mean, I do double work! Really Za Dao! Waste my time to set everything...and this Cutie, Yan Tao, "Goodest" senior say: give you a lesson so next time before you do your work you have to check everything so ma won't repeat lor. BOOM!!!!

After lunch, he bought me the sweet candy and say want to claim me down...haha...for those who know me well...you guy will know if I am really Angry or not happy, I am not that type of girl which can use a sweet candy to tam me...althought the Sa Lao buy me McFlurry, also can't tam me...You, Senior!I**n Se! I am not angry but then You, Please Don't bully me!!! Althought I am Just a small little junior and your assistance, but then...Don't Dim me la Ok!

Next time, YOU WIN YOU WIN!!!!ok??
hehe...but then Thanks for him la, cause he always help me and teach me...(he say I become more xi xin is cause of him, BLEK!!!)

LoS3 @nD LoSt...

9th November 2008

I was wonder why I will face this problem and because of this problem, I really suffer a lot from it. I don’t think it is bad or give any effect for the rest of the time, but why must take it so serious and come out a lot of the pressure to press me down.

Today, I am really upset, after chat with Kuan, I feel a bit okay and after that Sa Lao call me up…I cry for the whole…on that time, I really wish there have someone beside to give me a hug and sense of security…at least I have a place to rely…

Whole day I sit at home and lock myself into my bedroom, no communicate with anyone…night time, I found that I am really and I need to find a place to release my tension, in the end, I choose to go out and swim the whole Melaka.

I was out for 3 hours and non-stop to travel here and there, I even drive to Durian Tunggal, Half of Muar and Mahcap, Pulau Gadong, Sungai Udang, Pantai Kundur, Kurbong, Cheng Ayeh Keroh, Au Yun Hill and etc. until 12am++ I just finish my journey and turn back to home. Kuan ask me why not I find the Panda Bear to accompany me…

I told him that don’t want kacau him but the truth is: I really scare that I fail to get the Bear and in the end, I will feel more empty and sad… Kuan is coming back next week… and he said will only discuss with me on that time. Thanks to him although he at that hundred km far from me, but he will always there for me, my psychology consultant.

I have found out that, there have no one for me to rely and to protect me…I am really lose and lost…and I found out that, I am really useless and not important to anyone…

It’s been a rainy afternoon, now I starring at the moon, thinking, we get too serious too soon…

A Br@nd N3W d@y

8th November 2008

Rest your head and close your eyes
Everything will be okay...

For when you wake with the sweet sunrise
It will be a brand new day...

Turn down the lights and pull me close
Feel only the beating of our hearts as we lay...

For when you wake with the soft morning breeze
It will be a brand new day...

Relax your body and caress my soft hair
Let all of life’s worries melt away...

For when you wake with the warm summer scent
It will be a brand new day...

Fall fast asleep and dream with me
Whisper "I love you, I’m here to stay"...

For when we wake in each other’s arms
It will be a brand new day...

Motivation & Leadership LessonSSS

6th November 2008

Do something. If it is works, do more of it.

If it doesn't, do something else.

People need me…they depend on me. We're doing something important here. And knowing that gives me the energy to carry the sack, lead the pack, and keep coming back.

~Santa Claus~

~Motivation~

Three strategies from Nuts’nBolts Leadership

Hire for Tomorrow’s Job. Don’t just hire for a position, hire for the future. Jobs, technologies, and markets are changing faster than ever. Look for people who are intelligent, quick learners, and adaptable to change.

Remember: To Get the Best, You Have to Test! The most reliable predictor of success on the job is not experience, education, or age. The best predictor is testing. Test for every important criterion in the job requirements.

Keep Your Ears Open for “We’s.” [In interviews] Listen for the “we” word …unless you’re looking for an “I” person. One trait of good team players – no matter their level or function – is the use of the word “we” when describing previous work situations and achievements.

Require foR Wh@T??

6th November 2008

Brand new day, time pass away...today complete a Dormant audit report by using ONLY 1 day time. I feel that I getting love myself more and more, for sure I have to thanks to my little senior... haha...he say he is not that old, ask me don't say so. haha...I found that it is really nice to have such workplace and colleague who cause my day pass so fast and meaningful.

Maybe this few weeks I busy until forget those other thing, suddenly recall back that day Jie ask me to partner with him, I was so surprise that he will come to me and want me to become his partner. His reaction really surprise me and I just promise that I will consider and see how it is.

Still remember Yew told me about the minimum requirement to become the partner. That is why I just told Jie that I will consider if the requirement is not existed and those problem have been set off. He say he want to reverse me, haha...I was wonder why reserve me? Do you think I going to run away? haha...come on, impossible. haha..cause my leg too short liao la.

Now he got thing to busy with, so wish him all the best ya. Always here to support...

GooD LucK~ and About our engagement...we deal it later...C ya~

WaLk .. WoRk .. Wh@T?

5th November 2008

Today in office feel very peaceful. Early in the morning my boss already cook us a pot of red bean Tong Shui and serve us at tea time. Although the taste not that nice, not bad too la.hehe...Morning time my senior start checks on my audit report and found that there has some error on my report. He ask me do some edition but in the end, he also take my place and do for me. He always helps me to cover my problem. Just now he so naughty and take my planner to have a look on it. I ask him why so kepo take my planner.

Then you know what he answers? He says he just simply fooling around. Really Za dao! Then he comments that I have no time to complete my work as the planner plan. I also know la, but then what to do wor, I already do very fast liao leh. I already work like a real Sa po liao. You want me die meh. Hang off me also need time to wait till I die ma. Don’t complaint okay!

I already do my best but then Stupid client have so many mistake, error and those unknown figure, I have to trace it 1 by 1 although some are in-material but there have plenty figure are material. Then my senior asks me stay OT late as him. You know what time he went back home everyday? He always works until 8.30pm++ or 9pm from 9am morning. Oh My God! Kill me please. I wish to but then you want me walk back home at the dark night alone? Please la, I am not that brave and it is very dangerous okay, that is why my Sa Lao everyday no matter how busy he is, he stil come to fetch me, ini Manusia pula want me to back at late night.

In the end my senior told me that, he say he don't mind everyday after working accompany me walk back home then only he go back to his house. Wah, why give me such offer wor? Want me to become your V-Team it is? haha...man man teng la...haha...

I was wonder since when my boss hire a good worker as him and I was wonder how much he get from my boss. Don’t misunderstand my meaning. I just curious he can even become the security guard. Haha...Today he even treat me lunch and say it is for me as the new comer to there. Sweat, I already work for so long and today he treat me lunch and say is Sai Chang wor and although my other colleague (trainee as well) work for 2 months+ but my senior never treat her. Haha…really 10s you lor…

B@l@nc3 Sh33t oF LiF3~

2nd November 2008

Our Birth is our Opening Balance!
Our Death is our Closing Balance!
Our Prejudiced Views are our Liabilities
Our Creative Ideas are our Assets

Heart is our Current Asset
Soul is our Fixed Asset
Brain is our Fixed Deposit
Thinking is our Current Account

Achievements are our Capital
Character & Morals, our Stock-in-Trade
Friends are our General Reserves
Values & Behaviour are our Goodwill

Patience is our Interest Earned
Love is our Dividend
Children are our Bonus Issues
Education is Brands / Patents

Knowledge is our Investment
Experience is our Premium Account
The Aim is to Tally the Balance Sheet Accurately.
The Goal is to get the Best Presented Accounts Award.

Some very Good and Very bad things ....
The most destructive habit....... ......... .......Worry
The greatest Joy......... ......... ......... .....Giving
The greatest loss.......Loss of self-respect

The most satisfying work........ .......Helping others
The ugliest personality trait....... ......Selfishness
The most endangered species..... ....Dedicated leaders
Our greatest natural resource.... ......... ...Our youth

The greatest 'shot in the arm'........ ..Encouragement
The greatest problem to overcome.... ......... ....Fear
The most effective sleeping pill....... Peace of mind
The most crippling failure disease..... ........Excuses

The most powerful force in life........ .......... .Love
The most dangerous act..... ..A gossip
The world's most incredible computer.... ....The brain
The worst thing to be without..... ......... ..... Hope

The deadliest weapon...... ......... ........The tongue
The two most power-filled words....... ......... 'I Can'
The greatest asset....... .......... ......... ......Faith
The most worthless emotion.... ......... ....Self- pity

The most beautiful attire...... ......... .........SMILE!
The most prized possession.. ........ ......Integrity
The most powerful channel of communication. ....Prayer
The most contagious spirit...... ......... ......Enthusiasm

Life ends; when you stop Dreaming,
Hope ends; when you stop Believing,
Friendship ends; when you stop Sharing,
And...
Love ends; when you stop Caring...!!!

HapPY FaMiLy D@Y

1st November 2008

Today really happy with my family all. After shop at JJ then we meet up at Pearl café. A place that I love so much and we do enjoy a lot there. Don’t whose come out the stupid idea that starts questioning me and I have repeat the answer again and again but they thought I was lying.

To my dear family, I swear I didn’t lie to you all la ok. Why don’t want to believe me? Even itu Hujan also say about this. Thought today he in uneasy condition then won’t Boom people, mana tau BOOM me too…wei…u r Boom Ming ma, doesn’t mean must BOOM me ma.

While stay at there, we really PLAY HARD and joke hard. Know what? All about the 21st independent ISSUES. Really sweat la. Itu pun Siraj punya pasal start talking about the funny thing. Oi family, don’t PLAY too HARD ok. Haha…nanti kena baru tau, susah la. Haha…

Think we didn’t meet up for long term d, now really feel happy and enjoy a lot. Say get my lovingly jimui laychee there, really getting crazy and crazy and I tell you my dear jimui, I buy the shoes is cheap cheap de ok. Do not compare the price with me.

Haha…bully me sumore, next time got any 1st hand news, I don’t want to tell you d…haha… k k, miss you all…

Happy family day…muaks…Love you all…

H@PPy BiRthD@y...

1st November 2008

Today finish work at 730pm. After Sa Lao send me back, he go to meet his client and back to me at 8pm++. While thinking where to have our dinner, he come out the Idea and we went to Wa Zhen a Japanese food restorance. It is the nice place to eat Japanese food. I know this place is my Jimui- Fen Fen bring me there de.

We took alot of food there. The Sa Lao full until can't walk. hehe...he everyday say want to feed me till I fat fat, then now is my turn to feed him d...u jia lat liao..hehe...

After the meal, we have no idea where to go, we plan to have movie at 12:15am but in the end we went to Machap again. Amazing...11pm we travel to there. It is really scary and very dark. After that, we went to Au Yun Hill.(jus pass by) Actually our purpose is just swim swim car river.

While round here and there, I found that it is already 12am...I wish him and sing him the birthday song. Know what happen? Then he buy me a Mc Flurry. haha...I untung la. Sweat! Today is his birthday but I am the one who get the present from him. hehe...

After reach my house, I give him 2 present on his birthday. haha...think he sure Zha Dao with my CREATIVE naughty present. hehe...hope he like my present lor...

Sa Lao Sa Lao...Sa Po wish you all the best and hope you are happy with your birthday. I got nothing to surprise you, but just have little present here for you...

Happy Birthday....let's present...

Happy Birthday To you,
Happy Birthday To you,
Happy Birthday To Sa Lao,
Happy Birthday To you...

FalseHood...True...I didn't know~

30th October 2008

Time pass so fast, I found that I have been lie to myself for long term. I know what I really seeks for and what I really want to but...can I really get as what I request? Still remember there have a people say to me that sentense and we have a promise there. I took the promise seriouly and trust it blindly and now I even doubt on it whether I have trust it wrongly or not.

Maybe from the beggining, the ending is there, is just cause we never realise and now, I already took everything simple and not important at all for me...

Promise, it is just a word...that's all...
Thanks for growing me...I will always remember...

1st Audit Report...yeah~

30th October 2008

Finally, I complete my first audit report. I feel happy with my work although I have used 1 week to complete it, I still satisfied with that and I have some uncompleted part, my senior say will help me complete the whole and ask me don’t worry. Hehe…tomorrow he saw get my report, I think he will faint lor. Anyhow, thanks you la Ivan…this 2 weeks he s the one who give me guideline and assist me. Without him, I think I can’t even done my work happily. Really love you the most.

But once My Boss call me, she pass me a planner and tell me that those thing on the planner is my work and I need to complete on time as what she plan. She even ask me do Audit after those UBS work. Oh My God! i really tire with Audit since I know how it is gone. But anyhow, I am really thankfull that she really trust me so much and distribute those work for me to complete. i love my job. This is because I choose de...

Today he went back 1 hour earlier as office hour. Once he leaves, I feel free and start feel sleepy during working. This is because without him, I have nothing to do. Sa Lao fetch me at 6.30pm; I have been ready from 4.30pm. Haha…I felt that I am really lazy.

Sa Lao say today 8pm appointment, then when he send me back home after buying the fruit from the Ong Kim Wee., we walk along the riverside and enjoy the fruit. Then the Sa Lao pollute the environment, Opps…no no…I should say he is deco-ing the environment instead of pollute it BY HANGING THE FRUIT’S PLASTIC BAG ON TIANG NUMBER 80++ (if I not mistaken!). Go Go go…go catch him and charge him pollute the environment. Haha…

Now thinking of tomorrow plan…sometime while I busy and once I stop down, I will feel tire and always seek for a surprise or the thing that I desire for long term…how there have a surprise there for me…

Nice day~

GooD LuCk tO both oF Us~

28th October 2008

I don’t know since when we have the same luck as each other… today work until 6.30pm then Sa Lao come and fetch me back. Once step out from my office, I feel so tire and want to fall asleep (I even in office also want to fall sleep!)

When I walk out, I saw Sa Lao sit inside his car lie on the cushion and at that moment, I have a very strong feeling that there has something happen to him. When I go up to the car, I saw his face clearly and obviously I know that he is not happy. As a result, he told me he goes to langgar a lamp post and it is 100% owe by TNB. I saw him Mou Qun Mou Lan then I feel very happy. About his K & K S/B property, that will become sunk cost and it is now become a little sick on it. Never mind, life is always the most valuable goods.

After his happen, then is my turn to get bad liao. Haizzz…I found get that my hp spoil after I back from date with my Sa Lao. Now, I already have no hp with me. Really want to BOYCOTT S**s*** liao. Hp paliah!!! I take care it as my baby, love it like my honey, and guide it like my puppy in the end it spoil like my monkey.

Today feel so bad luck since two of us got same bad thing happen together. Although I have a bit lose, I worry my Sa Lao…don’t know his mood okay or not. Saw get him so sad, I also feel sad… just want him to be happy and laugh everyday…he always don’t want me to worry so he will only tell me all the good thing, show me all his happy face but in the others side, he will hide it off and turn it off. Sa Lao Sa Lao, Sa Po don’t want you sad sad…smile smile…think of me if you still not happy…

Good Lcuk… Hao de lai, Huai de qi…Hao de lai, Huai de qi...this is what my Sa Lao always say to me de. ( like praying leh…haha…yes. he is...keke!)

Who say only guy can give flower to girl de...hehe...
I am now dedicate this handmade flower to my dear Sa Lao...
I want him to be happy because of me...


Sa Lao Sa Loa, you ok liao bor?Smile smile...

mY woRkiNg + CasUal Sho3sSs...

27th October 2008

Summary the week of my job I found that I have really done less work compare with my senior. Start from tomorrow, I going to work faster and better. And now, my whole families’ member back to their workplace and going to start their work on tomorrow.

Just now went to shopping with my lovingly parent and today finally I done my work in buying shoes for my working purpose. Huuuuuuuuu….finally…mission accomplish! Yesterday Sa Lao go to JJ then I shun bian ask him help me this Sa Po to have a look on the shoes department see whether got any offer or not. Then he told me that there have sales 50% to 70%. Thanks God! I have place to buy my shoes...

Just now went to JJ, sweat...in the end I bought the 2 new shoes which are NEW ARRIVAL. For you guy information: NR have no discount de. Sweat!!! After bouthg it, I just realise that I have 2 black color’s shoes and it also bought from JJ. I wonder since when I support JJ so much? Haha… itu Rain complaint me say why girl so choosy and ma fan to buy many shirt, skirt and shoes. He say we girl wear so pretty also is for guy to see. Haha…tau pun!

Appearance always very important and is people first impression ma. The first day you date your lover or target you also wear like a VASE la. Tak kan you wear short pant + slipper + pajamas dating ma.

Always : Right place + right attire + with right action

If not cause of you guy; girl wear so pretty it will also become meaningless. Susah, really susah. Wear casual, people may complaint said why wear so simple. When we wear formal and pretty, guy pula complaint we choosy. So what should I going to wear wor? Any comment and recommendation?

DoN't KnOw WhO ChoSSy LoR!!!

Those are my existing and new members…nice nice…

MY EXISTING MEMBERs

This is main formal shoes from BONIA

This is 2nd Main from Primavera

NEW MEMBERs

This is my working high heel from NAUTINI

This is casual wear slipper from HAWKEYE

*p/s: SPECIAL THANKS TO MY SPONSOR:

MY LOVINGLY MUMMY!!!!!

FriDay...

24th October 2008

Finally, today is Friday. I found that I still haven complete my audit report. Don’t care! Since my boss didn’t give me a dateline and I just pretend don’t know for this moment. Too bad! How can I work like that…haha…is ok. I think I can handle it.

Found out that my Friday is a busy day and is a rest day for me, but don’t think that I have time to rest and go as what I plan. Life is always unpredictable.

Today let my Sa Lao send me here and there and cause him late to his appointment. I really feel so sorry and feel guilty on him. I like always give him trouble and didn’t bring to him any happiness… sound so bad.

He said want to go to walk around after his work. Although tomorrow is Saturday but I still need to work OT. I really feel tire now. Then my LOVINGLY MUM pula sit beside me and want to have a pillow talk with me. Swt...I ask her go to talk with her pillow instead of talk to me and I even fall asleep while I having my entertainment.

Since my Sa Lao say want to go out and hang around, I really willing and will sacrificed my rest and sleep for him. This is because I feel happy to see him and it is just an indescribable for me to explain and there have no why. Maybe it just like what people says; sometime the feeling only those who can feel it will know the reason why you do so. I always believe that.

Now already 11pm…that Sa Lao haven calls me yet. Don’t know how his work was and how was his day…hope he is okay with his work and don’t get too tire ya…

I have A gd SeNioRRRRR..

23rd October 2008

Time pass very fast and today already is Thursday; I feel my life very colorful and happy cause of my job. Early in the morning feel very tire and a bit lazy wants to wake up but then receive a message from my lovingly cousin and chat with him awhile I decided to wake up.

While on my way to my workplace, there have a little rain and I feel the weather was so nice. Once step into my room, I saw there have a piece of paper put on my table and I can recognize that was Ivan’s handwriting.

Once I finished read the little memo, I feel so happy cause he purposely drop me a note and give me some explanation for me as guideline to do my work. Heard my friends’ complaint some of their senior very bad and so unfriendly but my senior keep help me and even state me the little memo. Really feel happy to have it.

Today took my lunch with my Sa Lao and he say I wear the shirt very funny look so fat. Sob sob, don’t want wear that ugly shirt liao.

p/s: he didn’t say so but he meant it. haha…later got people want to kill me liao. but then I also feel that shirt very big and make me look huge. Paliah SODA~ haha...

Today let my Sa Lao wait awhile then faster fly out, if not he going to wait for me until he faint. Tomorrow is Friday, going to OT until late night then I can directly go to Jonker have a walk since I already long time didn’t enjoy my private personal period at there. So, tomorrow I OT no need let him wait. If not he sure become a orang gila outside my office…

After tomorrow going to holiday for 3 days, I love my day…

Is there anyone want to date??hehe...I seeking for entertainment...Cause sit at home make me very Sian...I DON"T WANTS...

Muaks…

AnGry Not Good FoR HeAltH

21th October 2008

Just back from dinner with my sa lao at supper time, I keep like that sure become fatty and ugly...BAD!Start from tomorrow must stay at home guai guai liao. Don't want always eat at late night. just now, my Sa Lao, itu budak now d pek cek liao cus scare i angry him by chas***g me out from his C*r.

Then I said I didn't angry at all CAUSE I NOT DARE TO ANGRY HIM but he take it so serious and maybe this is what people call: XIN XU. Cause he do wrong thing liao then sure scare people will angry, but no! I didn't angry at all...Cause I Not dare ma. Takut gua...

Then he bring me go to dinner and buy me a Mc Flurry (My favorite) then want to tam me back. mana tau I ini budak degil sangat, keep naughty him til he pek cek liao...

I AM NOW OFFICIALLY INFORM YOU-MY DEAR SA LAO: I DIDN'T ANGRY AT ALL.

YOUR SA PO NOT THAT SMALL GAS...

Love YA~ I Didn't angry you la...Bu seh de ma...

Then when reach home chat with YK, he draw me many item as present in msn so cute...got lolipop, flower, house, earth and etc.

There have one i love the most is the colourful strawberry...

here it is...Thanks to Yk...i now in good mood d...

TirEeeeee

21st October 2008

Today just finish do claim form haven do posting but early in the morning, my boss already come to me and ask me prepare w/p which need PPE, Section, Director Account and etc. i just put my work aside and start do audit. It will be my first audit. I need to prepare audit w/p and procedure…luckily Ivan has beside me to give me some draft picture.

By the way, ini budak pun just pass me some information and already pek me aside. Mean I need to settle all by my own. This time I really Mampus liao! Langgar tiang langgar sampai mati pun tak dapat buat.

The worst for me is: the document client send to me all are handwriting de lor! Siao liao lor, this time really siao liao lor…I not even can read their handwriting lor. Sian liao…

Finally today can back a bit earlier, but then I still let my Sa Lao wait for half an hour. Sorry…I really don’t want de… but then once I reach home, he pula chase me out from his car. Sob sob…yesterday say want to celebrate his birthday with him, who know he say he don’t want me to celebrate… and plus today kena chase out from his car, my glass heart already break liao… Sob Sob…sad.

Once reach home, I feel extremely tire and fall zz…while in my dreamland, heard mum said indirectly: really so tire meh? Yes, I really tire…

1st day WORK...

20th October 2008

Today is the first day for my work. It is really a brand new day. Early in the morning I already feel very tire and want to fall asleep. No choice, I have to go too since is my job.

Early in the morning reach office I meet the first colleague, Sue which is also my supervisor and there have another 2 colleague Ivan and Sara. Once I step into the office, I was wondering mana itu I punya tempat. Sue calls me and brings me into a room and tells me that is my place for my work. Oh My God! My room same size as my boss. My eye already open as big as goldfish… Sue tells me because our boss haven arrange properly so temporary give me the room until my boss arrange it. Mean:if my boss use 1 month to arrange, then I will own the room for 1 month... Oh My Godness... My room even same size as my boss. I got a personnel air-con, pc, nice chair and a big table.

Time pass pass pass pass pass……..

It already 5:30am…but I too concentrate until I didn’t realize that the time pass so fast till it already 6:30pm I still in office do my work and suddenly I feel something vibrating… Oh ya, it is my hp. Know who is that? My Sa Lao message me! Oh My God! I forgot that he 5:30pm come to fetch me and cause he don’t want I feel burden and Kalan-Kabut rush my work then he wait for me quietly outside my office for 1 hours++…and where got people so silly wait at outside for 1 hours+ then just message me…Haizzz…I am really sorry to my dear Sa Lao.

Sorry for letting him wait till so long and he really wait for me outside my office for 1 hours and didn’t complaint anything. By the way, next time don’t do so okay…I can walk back home. Don’t worry, I will try to be independent if not, one day you are not beside me, and who am I going to rely on…

Although today is my first day for my work make me feel tire and a bit headache by seeing those document and figure, but I still love my job since it is my job and I will always tell myself: Sky oh sky…You love your job. You love your job. Today is your first day go to work...go go go…


*This is my room for temporary...I love my boss the most...since when you saw a trainee can have a room and same size as boss de...

Love mean??

19th October 2008

I just question few of my friends about the view of love (it is a guy survey.). The answer they gave really surprise me. Some of my friend even gives me this equation:

relation=trouble

quarrel=fed up

love=cari pasal.

I don’t know since when lover become a trouble? If you really feel like your girlfriend will trouble you, then why you take this trouble? Do not ever forget about this: You are the one who select her to become your trouble.

If you have same thought as the equation above which mean You haven meet the one who you really love.

Girl will always seek for the one who can really care about them and who really love them. There have a friend ask me about this question: why girl can let go the love easily? No. Girl isn’t. Girl is always the one who can’t let go the relation once they are in love it is because for them, they will hold the hand till the end and guy is always the one who cause them let go the relation.

Before you hold one person's hand, always question yourself: Are you going to hold her till the end…It is easy to hold but it is not easy to let it go...

If you found that he or she is not your love one, please let it go. This is because while you let he or she go, at the meanwhile, you are actually letting yourself go as well.

Love wasn't put in your heart to stay. Love isn't love til you give it

SaY bYe ByE tO eXaM!

18th October 2008

Finally today I finished my last paper. Maybe because of I didn’t sleep for whole night with my Sa La. It cause I feel very tire and lack of oxygen when I was answering my paper. When I saw my paper, the first thing come across my mind is: can I sleep for awhile then just answer my paper?

Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok…after a moment…something was happened…

Amazing…I saw a student sleep on the table for quite long time…look!!!!! That student is…Wei Jie…haha very sweat! I thought I tire and want to sleep but he even Keng than me. Saw him lie on the table and put the question paper and answer sheet aside, he really was my idol.
11.30am…I feel that I am dying in the studio. I wake up clean up my thing and decide to leave the hall before I cant. When I pass by Wei Jie’s seat…hehe…guess what is he doing there? He is still sleeping…he really tire…

I with Wei Jie already have a date to take our lunch together but in the end both of us come out an agreement to terminate our date due to some circumstances. It is because two of us already going to collapse and lack of plenty oxygen and we decided go to bed instead of go to meal.

Until night time, Sa Lao call me and we have our meal at TWS at Jusco. After the meal, he brings me go to Swim Car River at Machap. I feel very nice to sit in the car with him go to round the place although along the road was extremely dark and I have a bit scare of this kind of darkness due to my personal reason but I am still okay since Sa Lao is beside me.

Once we finish our trip from Machap, we go to riverside to have a sit there. We enjoy the environment and the night view of the riverside a lot. It is really peaceful and very sweet view. At there, we chat a lot and we even fold a paper boat n put inside the river…until 1am, we just leave there with our full contented heart…

I finish exam liao meh?

17th October 2008

Is time for me to sit for the last paper…I really admire myself a lot, this is because I haven finish my study and I not even have complete tutorial for me to practice those question. Although it was an elective but I also need to study. Just now ask Wei Jie whether got complete tutorial or not.I found that his condition same as mine…haha…but he said going to take from JF and later help me Photostat and ask me get it from him by tonight after 10.30pm. Yeah, I am so happy to have him give me the help.

Keke…another thing make me admire myself a lot is I already have a plan for tomorrow after my exam.

Wei Jie say want to take lunch with me right after our exam. Then he plan to go Sibaraku take Sushi with me. Hehe…he said want to treat me eat at there cause is his birthday. (*p/s: his birthday already pass, but due to exam we didn’t celebrate so now delay to after exam.)

After lunch with him, maybe will have a meet with my beloved jimui-MB and Fen. This is because MB coming back today and she said after my exam want to see me. Love ya, she always miss me a lot…(I am SS-ing.hehe…)

Then after the meet with them, I am going to get my cloth for my work. I am now running out of time. I was wondering where I can get a cheaper and nice cloth so that I can look exclusive and look more professional. Mummy comes out an idea for me then I get the place to get my cloth. Love her…

Night time was my last activity and also is the best among the best. This is because the weather…it already is a night time, feel free to play due to sunless weather. Love the night moment.

8pm++ going to have dinner with my dear Sa Lao and after that we going to watch movie at DP and the movie is Disaster Movie. For those who under age please don’t watch ok cause this is 18PL de. Tomorrow night after I watched, I just tell you guy whether it is Nice or not ok...hehe...

This is me, haven finish exam but I already have those activities to celebrate my day.
I am now looking forward to my day…All the best…for tomorrow exam.

Jay Chou's O O song

17th October 2008

Be honest, I not really like to listen Jay Chou’s song. This is because I feel like he sing or not actually is the same cause of his singing tone and the song like without lyric. Some of his song, when I heard, I feel very noisy and the song likes making noise. (*p/s: it is just my little opinion. Jay Chou’s fan, don’t come across me to beat me. Especially my Jimui - Jaclyn. hehe…and my Sa Lao also is Jay Chou punya Kawan Karib..hehe~)

Since his previous album was launch, Secret and the Cow boy, I feel that I started to like his song and until today the latest album- Capricorn. I really like his song especially the O O song.(Jay Chou's fan, for sure you know which song I am talking about if you are loyal enough...hehe).

The first time I heard about this song is last 2 weeks' Saturday night when I was at my shop with my Sa Lao and this Sa Lao show me the song’s MV. I feel quite nice when I listen to this song. In the MV, you can saw a Ah Pek Tarik the Beca...he also O O~ing...sweat...

For you guy information: this is because my Sa Lao keep sing the O O to me and until today…once I listen to this song, I will think about the naughty Sa Lao sing this naughty tone to me with his naughty face and his naughty action. I can't even forget about it until now. Oh My GOD! We always create many memorable moment, action and happened between us and until now, it is unforgettable to me. This is because it is really very funny!

Tomorrow going to exam, this Sa Lao even go to Youtube search the funny MV and send it to me to release my tension. By the way, my dear oh my dear, did you know that I keep play the song and cause me failed to study and laugh crazy because of your O O tone? Haha, I really faint with the O O tone that you sing to me…

O O O O O O O O O...................

You see la, O til now I still haven finish study...Sob Sob... I already O O for whole day...Hope tomorrow paper don't O O then I will be very happy.

For those who not yet listen to this song, can go to get it because it is really nice…

Faster go...Don't miss it!!!

Those are the album cover and some poster
(some are come from my Sa Lao)

*p/s: I am still not his fan yet...hehe

Whr is your courage?

16th October 2008

There have same thing keep appear on my mind, I was thinking it is what I am doing now is correct? Fen always says I always know what I want. It is true? I start wondering when the thing is there for me to decide. KK ask me the question makes me have a very strong feeling on it. I think it is already not because of my decision anymore. Ya, I recall the happened, maybe Fen is correct. I always want myself to know what I always seek for and what I always want.

Panda always force me to admit and he always wants me not to deny the true feeling. He is very right but I am very suffer when he keep repeat the same thing for me to think back. I admit and I always accept what he want me to. This is because I know his motive. I have the very strong feeling to choose what I want, he is one of the causes always make my way clear.

Now is their way not clear and not sincere to their own self, what I can do and I can help I already give the maximum, just hope they always know what they really want.

Face, always needs more courage,

Escape, always need more than face it.

And…

Regret, always worst than escape…

It can make you regret for whole lifes…don’t because of your timid, your coward and your nervous make you lost the thing most important in your life.

I am really Meant it...

Sui Tou Tip Tei liao

15th October, 2008

Today really is my bad day. Last 2 days I found that my pc has some problem and I failed to on it. Since I have no idea to settle my pc I call up Steve come and help me to check my pc. After the consultation, he told me my pc problem is cause of partition crash. I thought it was a small matter maybe after format everything will be alright.

Then yesterday Sa Lao accompany me sent my pc go to checkup and I got back my pc today. Once Sa Lao finish plug in the entire weir, I feel so happy because I can online and I can on my pc as usual. I have been transferring my line back to my home sweet home. Once I on my pc…OH My GOD! I found that all of my C drive data have gone! Wah…amazing! I lost all of my data, document, song, picture and all!!!

It really collapses me when I saw all of my data gone. I almost cry and feel so heart pain due to all of my memorable picture, favorite song, private document and etc. I found that I really very bad luck, the Sa Lao pula ask me next time must save as many backup as I can. I really want to hang myself.

While I was pekcek-ing…Yew calls me up and chats with me. I told him about my bad day, he just keep make me laugh and let me forget about the bad thing. After chat with him, I really feel okay and feel release. Just like what I told my jimui-LayChee…the thing already happened, instead of sad, why not try to cover up or recover it by using a better matter or way.

In the end, here have a heavy rain, after a bath…I really want to rest. This is because I already Sui Tou Tip Tei liao~ No more bad luck!.

I am free from bias~

10th October 2008

I get an offer from KP Tan. I need to go KL for 3 months time. I have many questions and problem come to me from the day I receive the offer. I thought there have no problem for me to overcome my problem but in the end I found that I was wrong.

My friends and family keep ask me to stay at here and don’t go to KL and stay alone there. This is because they Bu Se De I go.

From the day they question me, I keep asking myself whether I really want to go or not. In the end I found that I hope to go and I wish to try the life there.

Once I get the offer, I was so happy and I call up Sa Lao to share with him my happiness. When the moment I hug him, I feel very happy and sad for no reason. I think maybe I Bu Se De him as well since this few months, he are everyday beside me.

I have asked him for several times whether he wants me to go or not. He told me no matter what my decision be, he will support me and he will never change no matter where I gone. When I heard that, I really feel happy and feel free and easy to leave.

He told me that he really doesn’t want me to go. He told me once he heard I said I am going to KL, he feel upset instead of happy. Because of my future and it is what I want, he told me he will support me with no reason. He said he not going to be selfish just want me to stay beside him and stop me from doing my career.

He knows that is my dream and my wish. He also told me that he will travel to KL when I was there. I know he just try to comfort me. I know...

He can sacrifice his life for me, why I can’t sacrifice my future because of him?
I was really considering the matter for several days due to this matter. And today...I found the answer for myself.

Exam lor~

5th October 2008

Oh My Dear GOD! Later my exam going to hold at CITS Lab 1 and I am now very tire to study all the note, formula, section and etc. I am really tire with those genius section but what to do? I can only send message to some of friends to support them mentally as to support myself as well.

Look at the Sa Lao sit beside me watching movie, I feel worry cause he always because of me then make himself tire but he never say. I don’t want become his burden instead of happiness. I know him for so many seasons, I not dare to say I understand him very well but at least I know what his thinking. We know each other thought as well. Just don’t want he suffer because of me this little girl.

Almost dawn…look at his tire face, I really have no idea to ask him back although I really hope he can stay beside me. I ask him back to rest but he seem can read my mind and ask me not to worry about him. In the end, I chase him go to have a good sleep and he followed at last. I knew; I knew he was very tire at that moment.

After a moment, is my turn feel tire and it almost time for me to exam, I went to bed have a short rest to refresh my mind. He was just next to me to rest. Look at his tire and sweetie face, I am really feel heart pain and sorry to him. This is because he always put me at the first place and suffers himself. Just want him to have a good rest.

Not tire?

4th October 2008

Today is the 3rd day this Sa Lao stay beside me. I don’t know since when I feel free to see him every morning when I am awake. No, I think I should say once I open my eye. He is just next to me. Where got people like that? Always no need to sleep but still full with energy…I am curious and worry as well. I am curios about how come he was so powerful and energetic. I am worry he will not have enough sleep and rest to do his work.

After a break, we were having our dinner just next to my house. After the meal, he sends me back to home and he just leave. I feel fresh when he was with me. I feel happy and comfortable when he is there for me. I don’t know how his feel. Hope I won’t always a trouble for him ya.

Rainy day

3rd October 2008

This is the 2nd day this Sa Lao stay with me, and tonight, he fall a sleep with my little Sin Chan. Looking at his funny sleeping look, I feel so funny and cute when I look at him but he never notice of it.

Again, the night was dark and cold; he stays beside me and watching some movie and TV show. Then I continue with my study with him beside. After awhile, he also fall a sleep and I look at him, I know he really tire but he never say any single word in front of me when I was asking him.

Around 4am++ he fall asleep and outside was raining. It was a raining cat and dog. I feel that it is quiet cold to stay at the living room. Look at the silly Sa Lao sleep at my sofa; I took out a blanket to cover on his body but too bad, while me covering, I awake him. I am so sorry to disturb his sleep.

Again, he says nothing and continues his sleep. Before he sleep, he keep ask me to take a rest. I just answer and say I will. After a moment, I fall asleep as well and when I awake, I found that the blanket I cover on his body become on my body. I know he don’t want I get cold.

Until morning 6am+… he was very tire by not having a good sleep for whole night. After send him back, I feel so sorry always make him tire. Just hope that, he can have more rest, don’t always busy because of me…

Our talk

2nd October 2008

This is the 1st day Sa Lao stay with me for the rest of the whole night after our supper. I feel very happy and won’t feel tire when he was there with me to study for the whole night until the next day morning. I worry he will tire and I ask him back earlier but he refuse to do so and he say want to stay with me for the whole night.

I know my parent not around, he scare I alone at home with my grandpa and he want to accompany me that is why he scarified his sleep to stay beside me. I am really felt touching. The night, we chat a lot and he also falls asleep for a little while. Look at his sleepy loot, I know he is very tire but because of me, he force himself to stay with me without any blame. I feel so sorry when I saw him always tire and busy because of me.

I started ask myself: why I always give him trouble and problem. Every time I say sorry to him, he will always say: is not because of you. 5 years ago, he already gives me such answer. Until today, he still gives me the same answer. I know no matter what I did, he will forget and forgive.

He will always spoil me.

Selamat Hari Raya

1st October 2008

Selamat Hari Raya to my entire friend. Today is a public holiday for Malay and non-Malay. We was so happy to celebrate the Hari Raya with others races in this special day. Life will always full with color when you have a holiday for you to rest.

When everyone was happy with the holiday, I feel a bit upset this is because my exam is just around the corner and I found that there has empty information in my mind. Oh My God! I am looking for some method to help me increase my ability to study.

When I want to study my note, I found that some of my note was not printed yet. How am I going to study? I ask myself this question. In the end, I decide to go to my shop and download my note.

Sa Lao say can’t go to shop alone since there have no people with me. Then he come and fetch me and bring me go to my shop stay with me when I doing my work. I like the feeling he is with me beside to accompany me. I feel enjoy to do my work so that I won’t feel lonely and empty.

He always like that, he say he don’t want anything happen to me. No matter what I do, he sure want to beside me or know about it just to make sure I am safe and well. I always appreciate that I have him to beside me.

No trip for me

30th September 2008

Today, early in the morning, I already wake up and have a breakfast with my parent before them going to their holiday at Vietnam. After sent them to station, I lie back to bed and continue my dream. My naughty mummy and naughty aunty keep calling me for no reason and purposely talk some naughty thing to make me sad. This is because I having my exam that is why I fail to join the trip to Vietnam. My naughty parent and aunty keep laugh at me by keep calling me. Bad!!!

Night time, I was alone at home with grandpa, the feeling of lonely come so near to me and make me sad for no reason. I really feel empty when you found that there have only you, yourself alone.

At night time, Sa Lao call me and bring me go out for travel and supper. I feel happy because there have some activity for me to fulfill my loneliness.

Our 1st trip to Muar

29th September 2008

Why I always feel bore? Haha…today I feel so Sian and no mood for study. The Sa Lao come to me and say want to bring me go out walk around to refresh my mind. I found that we have no place to go but in the end, I still follow him go out.

Suddenly walk till a place, he say why not we go travel around. I was wonder where to go that time, he come out an idea say want to bring me go Muar.

Oh my god! I was so happy to hear that this is because I love to travel so much and I love to sit beside him when he was driving. I enjoy myself when I was with him.

Did you know where we go at Muar? We just round at the Muar town and his company building. After round for an hour, we back to our hometown.

Some other people might feel that we very lebih by having such useless activity, I don’t know what did he think. For me, I really enjoy myself during the whole trip.

I enjoy myself. So, I will never care what did people say and think because it is not important for me anymore when I was with Sa Lao doing some crazy and full with surprise’s journey.

Courage

27th September 2008

Saturday is a super bore day for me. This is because when I have no place to go. At night, I feel very bore to sit at home. I want to go out and seek for some fresh air but in the end I choose not to do so. This is because when you walk alone and you will realize there have many couple surrounding you. I dislike the feeling which cause me feel empty. I will always choose not to go out during weekend, although I am really wish can go at weekend…

After think for few days, I found that I need to have some decision which can help to reduce my burden and feeling. The feeling was so strong to come over me and make me feel suffer and lost my way. Maybe I shouldn’t be so emotional or so weak to seek for the protection from anyone.

In the end, I can’t control myself and my courage tells me I need to do something to avoid some tragedy. It is not only for me but for others as well. I take out my 100% courage to share the feeling with Sa Lao and this is the first time I share with a person with 0% hidden meaning. I become 100% transparence to him.

In the end, I tell Sa Lao about my thinking and thought, his reaction was surprise me. After we chat for the whole night, I just realize that we have actually let go something that both of us didn’t notices. It is call as fate? I don’t know. Maybe it is yes and maybe it is no. I really hope to have an answer to fill my question.

After the whole night chat, he said he will go toward to what he wants. He will now start to fight with what he really wishes to have and he knows his target very clear.

Thanks you my dear, I always support and trust on him just like how he support and trust on me.

Bore~

26th September 2008

It’s already Friday; look at my note and my tax book. I really feel so bad to study of it. Never mind, I can always skip from it.

During the study period, I feel so bore to study, at the meanwhile, Sa Lao coming… hehe…again.
We take our supper at outside after his work. We always like to lepak at outside and he will bring me go here and there to walk around. He knows I like to sit in car to round the place; he will always bring me go here and there just want to see my smiling face.

I am glad to have him always beside.

My little gift.

25th September 2008

Afternoon, Sa Lao come and visit me, we chit chat a lot and he come and teach me how to fold the frog for my little student. This is because I have promise my little student will give him a frog but my naughty brother never help me to fold the frog and make me always go to work with my empty hand.

Luckily I have this Sa Lao always help me to settle my problem and always help me to complete my task, wish and dream. He goto online search and find out the step to fold a frog for me.

He brings a frog which it already folded with a nice green color paper and he asks me not to give anyone. This is because that is the only and the first frog he folded for me. The frog looks very nice and very cute. Even he didn’t say so; I will also not going to give anyone due to the reason that he gives it to me.

I love the frog very much. Thanks you my Sa Lao.