God bless MaMa

1st September 2008

Today feel very moody, this is because my Mummy suddenly falls sick and almost faint down due to her sickness. Morning, I emergency send her into clinic and asked for injection.

I have no idea to help her beside cook for her and ready the medicine for her. I have prepared food for her, but since morning until now, there have nothing inside her stomach. Without any food, she still takes her medicine. I really worried whether her illness body can support or not. I really worry about her and this few months, I found out there have too many things come in once and I felt going to collapse soon.

While I was in moody mode, I have a chat with Zh3n Yi3n for awhile. It is one of the ways to release my feeling. After talk with him, I feel quite okay and not that tension as before. Maybe sometime I really need to show my true feeling instead of hiding it. He encourages and comfort me a lot. We use to chat about our life. I am glad about that. We still know each other. Thanks for the concern, I am still Optimistic.

After awhile, I receive a message from Fen Fen; she told me that Fish already went to KL. Oh bad! Too bad! I didn’t meet him before he leave. Although KL with Melaka is not that far, the feeling is totally different. What I can say is: The fate brought us together and separates us as well. As his sister, I would like to wish him all the best in future. No matter how, I will still take him as my brother forever.

SMILE

1st September 2008

Thanks to My Jimui~~ L3tt3r Pap3r~~. For your information what I told you is truly come from my heart which I am really okay and recover from the illness long ago. Everyone have the responsibility to settle their own task and problem. Same to me, I can do it.

I will always promise not to be sad and I will show you my sweetie smiling face all the time. This is because I always know that I have you all behind me no matter what happen. I know you guys will always ready to listen and ready to help. Me too. Remember that time you at my place and the night you share a lot of your thing with me? I will also let you become the FM audient when I need it.

I really promise will be happy and just like what Zh3n Yi3n said. By the way, I am still optimistic although there have so many problems come to me in once. Anyhow, I really love to have you as my jimui. I will never let myself down when all of you are there.

Remember our promise…always ready to listen and to give out the hand whenever you need. That is my promise to you. Not only you, my best jimui and beloved brother too.

I will be very happy when all of you are surround me.
That is my happiness~

I promise~

I am thankful~

1st September 2008

This few months, I have been suffer by not getting the enough sleep and rest in peace. I not really find out what was the matter that happens to me but I know that there have many people worry about me. Hey my dear best jimui and brother, I am always okay here. This is not because I am very strong or I very powerful, this is because of I got all of you there for me.

Beside busy with my study, I have busy with too many activities in example: talking, chatting, bathing, reading and also sleeping. I learn a lot from what I have faced. I know what to do just sometime not said we can do whatever thing that we want.

Honestly, I am really nothing. I got my happiness now, what to worry? I have brother; jimui, family and so many people are there for me. I just don’t want to lose anyone anymore. That is my only wish~
I love you all my Beloved Family’s members, Jimui and Brother.

National day

31st August 2008

Today is our national day. This is the very special day for the citizen to celebrate the country birthday. From the dawn, I cannot sleep until 5am+. That is the problem again. I think I really need to rearrange my daily live and my life.

During these 5 hours which is 12am to 5am, I was chatting with Sa Lao by using SMS. We chat a lot, a lot and a lot. It is really fun and at least I found my way to spend my time. Early in the morning, I woke at 8am+ this is not because of I very powerful or I wants to do so. It is just because of my family day. My parent wants me to take breakfast with them and with my family’s members. It is torturing me~ OMG! My dear family knows my character, I rather hungry but cannot let go my sleep. In the end, I still force myself to wake up because I love my family, I can sacrifice my sleep. This is just because I love it.

After breakfast, Sa Lao said he was outside my house and we already plan to see the parade right outside my house. He is another one who also sacrifices his sleep. This is because he never sleeps for whole night from 11pm until the next day morning. He said is ok for him by not sleeping for a night and want to see the parade with me. I was so happy. Thanks to you, Sa Lao.

While the parade finish, we walking back to my house and when I was in the middle of the road, I saw a car drive so fast and direct to my way, I was smiling in the middle of the road while I saw the car, and the Sa Lao thought the car is going to bang me, he call me so load and ask me run faster but I ignore him. This is because the driver is my best friend, Panda. He sounds the horn in front of me. Bad! We like to play…but of course safety come first.

After that, we continue back to our way. Sa Lao make an appointment with me on this coming weekday, we going to have another brand new day soon.

See you ya.

Rainy day

28th August, 2008

Today, the night make me feel warm, the feeling of warm is not because of the hot weather but is because the rainy day. I feel warm and comfortable when the rain dropping down from the sky. Due to the nice weather, I can’t fall asleep as usual. Before bed, I send a message to Sa Lao and make a date for the next day activity. I expect he will not reply me on time, I just simply send out a hope but in 3 minute time, he does reply me and give me a plan for our date. I feel so happy and we start to chat a lot about our plan.

After 2 hours message each other, it is around 3am++, the rain start become heavier and Sa Lao call me to chat for 30minutes+ while he was on his way drive back home. While we chatting, he told me he was at Bkt Cina there and said want to come my house. At the beginning, I really doubt on him, this is because I know that is already 3am++ and his house is far away from my house. To shown he was really on the way back home and his is outside my house, he straight away come to my house to prove that he will never lie to me. OMG, he sounds the horn at 3am++ right outside my house. I really feel so funny and I can say this Sa Lao best friend really naughty.

He leaves my house in 3 minutes time and we still chat through phone non-stop until he reaches his home safely. The rain getting heavy and heavier, but it never block our topic and mood to chat on phone.

Until the next day noon, he promise to come and visit me and we having our lunch and shop together for the whole noon until 6pm. It is really a long time. Just try to imagine, two of us sit at the Wong Kok there for so many hours. We free from bias. Before we move to DP, we met KH at MP; this is another naughty friend we always like to cheat me. Bad! I look like so stupid? Why they all like to bully me? For them, I am a tiny for them to bully of. Be honest, I really enjoy those period we have spend together.

After the lunch with Sa Lao, I feel very happy and we think back all those memorable period which we have spend together and we have a promise. That promise is brought to me by him. Yeah, thanks to have Sa Lao…

A good activity

25th August, 2008

Today really tire. 10.30pm back to home; I feel my whole body going to explode due to my activity. Anyhow, I must thanks to Chye Hsiang’s help. This is because he is the one who brings me into the activity. But soon he will leave Melaka and back to KL. Wish him all the best and his MaMa too.

I feel very surprise and happy to have those “fun” and “joyful” period during the activity. Is not a hard work, but it really makes my energy burn a lot. When I reach home, I feel so relax and enjoy the feel and the moment which I spend on it.

After a cold shower, I took a cup of Hot Milo. Wah…that moment, I can feel that I am the happier people in the world which having the happier period right now. It is very simple and nice feeling for me to enjoy. Before bed, I say thanks to Chye Hsiang again due to his help and I end up a day with a good sleep and tension free night.

Buddy buddy~~

24th August, 2008

Finally, I can have my own private period to release my pressure. Thanks to my entire buddy who always make me happy and comfort me with hundred thousand methods. Maybe TY is correct, I shouldn’t always think in a circle, but a whole.

He said to me a lot of psychology thought, I feel quite reasonable and quite suitable for those situation. I think a lot of method to fight with him and in the end we come out with a same conclusion. Is this call as linear? We have the same linear maybe I can explain in this way.

Day after day, time past away, I found that I have truly utilize all the period which we have spend together. Not because of lonesome, cause of we are true friend. I do believe that we must come out with the same thought to bring us together.

I know it is simple but not easy to get through it but in the end, we manage to done it. I feel proud of it. Proud of our work, is not partly, but plenty.

Summer Live Concert 2008

23rd August, 2008

Most of the people know about the special of today right? Today is the 8TV Summer Live Concert which carried out at MITC. Early in the morning there have some rain, I with my jimui, Tricia already have a backup plan for the concert. Until 3pm++ we start our journey to MITC there due to the concert. Actually my best friends and jimui know that, I don’t like to join the concert or any event which is related to the artist. I will join this concert is because of my jimui go there then I just simply follow without any reason.

Once we reach there, I with Carriene feel quite bore this is because tow of us doesn’t like to attend this type of concert just feel fun to join for nothing. Before the concert start, the rain comes before it starts. OMG, because of the concert, we will go to become a wet hen. Cannot!!! In the end, I took out my little Esprit to cover up my and MB head. The rest of them cover with the hand fan. This will be my new experience. Good! It is really fun. I feel happy is not because of the artist, but the environment. Haha, after the concert, all of us feel very bore and hungry. We stay at McD until 1am++ and when I reach home, it already almost 2am++.

After shower, I feel good and feel nice to rest. Look at my little dear sleep beside me; I can feel the peaceful come from him. Tonight, I feel so happy…

Thanks to you, my beloved Jimui.

Til the end

All these precious moments
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That holding me all night

I don't know how i found you
I am thankful that I have
Now that I have the love so true
To hold,
To keep,
To share...

In my heartI can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I will always be
with you untill the very end
In this world,
there is no place I had rather be
You are
my life,
my soul,
my girl
And throught it all
I know that you have come to see

That you are the one
Till the end

All my friends around me
Say you had be gone too soon
But I am gonna make them see
We have found our way back home

Life~~

I think… It is the time for me to be more independent and be more mature. I make use to it. Life can be very miserable, special and thoughtful. I know I understand what did TY meaning d. I will let go it and act as what I should be.

Thanks you my dear friend

It had been long time I didn’t update my blog. It might be my problem. This is because I neglect my blog. Never care for it feeling. I just always focus the other blog. In the end, I lost my time for it.

I really think a lot for this few months. Maybe is time for me not to be a small girl. I thanks for those who always support me and help me all the time. The feeling is very true, the support is very sincere…I am very sure.

I might not be a very good friend to them but I am sure I can also be a very good listener. Just sometime we really need to find a door to let go something that we couldn’t hide inside anymore. It is not that difficult. Instead, it is very simple.

Just like what Sa Lao always tell me: is like de, don’t always give yourself problem. This is his phrase. I know he just try to find some correct way to comfort me. I know he care me.
Second, is another best friend Kuan Kuan. He is a future psychology doctor (might be) we use to share many idea and thought as well. We really share a lot and I learn a lot from him. We always use psychology method to discuss our problem.
Third, is my XS’s partner, SK-II. He is the one who always teach how to communicate with others. Every time I have problem he will give me some solution.
And here is the one I really want to kick a lot. Victor is one of my very friends, he always like to point out my hidden feeling. I hate him. I hate him can read me very well. I use to be hiding in front of him but in the end I fail to do so. I admit what he said is really correct and straight to the point.
The last is TY. He is a friend who really knows me very well. Maybe this is because I feel comfortable to talk with him so we can share. He is right, why want to let myself stop at the beginning point? Sometime we make the decision is not because of us, is for others. I use to understand more.

I already forget there how many single nights I have lost my sleep. Thanks to them, during all the night, they always beside me and give me support.

Our Dinner

22nd May 2008
Today, we were having our last paper. Thanks God. Finally we can run from it. We can release our tension since the exam is over. After the paper, 5 of us plan to have a dinner at Le Garden. Fen, Mb, Tricia, Jay and Me. That is a dinner for us to celebrate the final is over. Thousands of words inside my heart have made me feel so sorrow. This is because we going to separate due to training programmed.

After the dinner at Le Garden, we have another round at Jetty. At there, we take photo, we chit chat, we share our heart talk…before leaving, we hug each others as a taken of jimui sign. We really don’t want to leave each others. 3 years…we have stay together for 3 years time. Just try to imagine this is our life in this 3 years time:

We have lunch together,
We have dinner together,
We eat Sushi together,
We eat buffet together,
We yamcha together,
We take steamboat together,
We celebrate each other birthday turn by turn,
We meet each other in class at least 5 days a week,
We talk to each others,
We have pillow talk,
We have heart to heart talk,
We help each others up,
We study together,
We do assignment together,
We have meeting together,
We boycott same people together,
We help out to share each other problem,
We give support to each other,
We skip class together,
We shopping together,
We even hate same animal together!
Etc…

We have spent more time which each other than our family. It is already a part of my life. I really feel so sad and do not have heart harder enough to let it be.

Just wants to tell my Jimui: I really feel happy to have you all as my best friends. In this 3 years time, we never quarrel or have any internal problem. We forgive each other when there have some conflict. We tolerate each others. This is how we manage our jimui-ship. We never fight with each other to get the higher score in study. We even share the tips among ourselves. This is how we communicate and how we stay with each others.

Jimui, really thanks to have you all. Without you all, I will never have all the happy hour with you all. I will always Love You all the most! I promise!

My present

9th May 2008
Today is my birthday. Step into 22nd stage I feel there have nothing different. If you really ask me what is the different from it I can only says that: I am older than last year. Sound so simple, but thing makes it change. Life will never be simple. Or I should say: life can’t be simple.

Once it reached 12am, 9th May 2008. I receive so many messages from my best friends. All of them wish me all the best and wish me happy birthday. I feel so sweet and happy. For me, the best whishes from my friends is always the best present for me.

This year, I receive very special present from 2 of my best friends. Jewelry? Cash? Valuable thing? No! No! No! This is not about money. This is all about the true from heart creation.

While I was head aching studying in library and fight for my final, I receive a message from my friend- Eric Lim, a best friends which I know him for 4 years time. He is currently at CJ. He have email me a birthday song which sang by him. He sends me the song as my birthday present. Last year he also sang me the birthday song but only with one sentence. This year, I request for a full version birthday song. He really sang me a full version song. When I listen to the song, I feel so touching and feel so happy. My tear is going to drop from my eye. Be honest, if he is now in front of me, I will hug him and say: I feel happy to have you as my best friend. Never regret! Never change. The birthday song sang by him is now inside my phone. Thanks to have you.

Here is another best friend, which is-Simon Wong. I also knew this naughty guy for 4 years time and he is currently at CJ as well. That day he called to me and chats with me for almost 1 hour. While we chit chatting, he sing me a birthday song through phone. I feel so happy as well. Still remember last year while my birthday, he also call to me and sang me a birthday song. I feel very surprise. When I listen to the birthday song, I really feel funny. This is because he is so funny and cutie. This year, he also sang me one. I really feel happy and touching on it. If you are now in front of me, I really will hug you and say the same thing: I feel happy to have you as my best friend. Never regret! Never change. Thanks to have you.

The main reason for me to feel so happy is: I didn’t meet them for so many day and night but they still remember my birthday and give me the special present as my birthday surprise. This is not redeemable for cash. For me, this is even more valuable than money. I really want to thanks to two of you…

I have make a wish for my 22nd birthday; I hope I can meet you two in my coming birthday…this is because, we going to graduate soon, I don’t want to lose anyone of you. Wish to see you all soon.

Will it come true…

My 22nd birthday

8th May 2008
Today is one of my jimui’s birthday-Jay. She is 1 day older than me. So, this is our culture-celebrate my birthday and her birthday on 8th and 9th of May. Is very special right? I feel very happy to have such simple but full with memory birthday with my beloved jimui.

Now are study weeks. All of us busying with the final exam and we all have so much tension on it. We everyday look at the note and refer the same. Even there have an exam, my jimui still take out the time for JS birthday. Really thanks to them and I feel so happy. I believe that Jay will also have the same feeling with me.

We were having our dinner at Cosmo Noodle Bar. A place I celebrate my 21st birthday. I feel very happy to have the photo section there. It makes me feel so sweet. After the dinner, we were having another drink and birthday cake section at Xuan-a café at Melaka Raya. They sing the song for me and Jay. Sound so nice.

Thanks to you all: MB, Fen Fen, Jay and my bro Goldfish. Did you guy realize there have someone is missing from the list? Yes, there is. But don’t misunderstand me. I never left out anyone. This is because one of my jimui absent from the celebration of JS birthday-Tricia. She falls sick during our celebration.

Without her it seems like very weir. This is because we are normal with 5 jimui in a group. This is the fact and it will never change until the day we graduate. I love my jimui.
Thanks to have you all as my jimui and give me a special day of birthday.

Sky’s Chinese Birthday

5th May 2008
For you guys’ information today is my Chinese Birthday. Be honest, I, myself, don’t know today is my Chinese birthday this is because I not really care about Chinese birthday. Why I purposely blog down here? This is because I have ah jie who sek me very much. 12am she already send me the wish to wish happy Chinese birthday. I thought she send to a wrong date so I didn’t care about it. The next days she dates me for lunch and she bring me go to a new place to try out a new food.

While taking out lunch, she asks me whether I know today is my birthday or not? I just realize today is my birthday. So funny, she is the one who remind me the date for my birthday. After the lunch, we go to walk around in Plaza Hero. Around 3pm++ I back to home to take a lazy nap.

At night, ah jie send me a message and ask me whether I have taken my dinner or not? I reply her not yet due to the belated lunch, I still not hungry yet. Then she said very good cause she wants to cook me a bowl of Mee Sua. I am surprise to hear it from her. She said birthday girl must take Mee Sua only consider birthday and have the feel of birthday. I really feel so happy because of it.

After half an hour, she delivery the noodle to my house and ask me to finish it so it only mean I am a birthday girl. The noodle was so nice and so tasted. I purposely message to my brother and tell him about my happiness. That genius brother said never heard that she know how to cook and ask me is she cook or her maid. I feel so funny but I told him, who cooked was that so important? For me, the meaning of it is very important for me. The rest…I not really care.

At last, really wants to say thanks to my ah jie who so sek me…Thanks you jie. I love you…